Every year I tell myself it will be better than the last year and then it turns out to be worse. I feel like I'm losing control and the world is spinning and I keep trying to grasp, to hold onto something but everything slips away. The things I thought were right, the kind of people I never wanted to be friends, I always thought I had it figured out. But what do you do when what you think is right will hurt more people than if you don't act on what you believe on? What if your friends turn into what you hate? Have I changed or have they changed? I feel like my whole life has been falling into an infinite hole and because it was an unnoticeable amount every day I never realized until now.