Today, or I guess yesterday in Korean time Korean actor Park Yong Ha commited suicide. He was 32 and a very famous actor across Asia. His friends said that they had spoken to him on the phone the day before and were shocked because he seemed quite normal. He even had plans with his friends later that day the morning he died.

It's strange and scary how easy it is for people to hide their pain and smile and laugh in front of others when secretly inside they are suffering. Humans generally take things at face value and are easily satisfied in matters that are not about themselves. Perhaps if someone had asked out of the blue if he was sad or wanted to talk about his personal problems he would still be alive. Unfortunately it takes events like this to wake us up from time to time and make us think and really try to help others. You never know the positive effect you can have on another just by one small action. Just by asking one more question.

"Let us learn to show our friendship for a man when he is alive and not after he is dead". -The Great Gatsby

Hello World

It's terribly awkward hanging out with friends of your friend and your friend. I've been doing it a lot recently because my friend keeps inviting me to hangouts. Even though they treat me kindly the same feeling always comes back; a sense of sadness and loneliness. I guess this is due to not understanding inside jokes. I hate imposing on other people so I never ask anyone to explain what's so funny. I smile when everyone laughs because I don't want to ruin the mood. But then it begins to add up as the jokes pile up and it becomes harder and harder to smile. I start to feel isolated and I start having these strong urges to run away from the current situation. I'm too sensitive to other people and have a crazy imagination, so I'm told by my friends hahaha. I don't know what to do. I know I have a problem with keeping my emotions in check. Sometimes I feel unreasonably sad for no reason. It's happened a lot less since I came back from binghamton but it came back this past weekend when I was hanging out with bing people.

Therefore, the conclusion must be that Binghamton is terrible for your mental health!