It's terribly awkward hanging out with friends of your friend and your friend. I've been doing it a lot recently because my friend keeps inviting me to hangouts. Even though they treat me kindly the same feeling always comes back; a sense of sadness and loneliness. I guess this is due to not understanding inside jokes. I hate imposing on other people so I never ask anyone to explain what's so funny. I smile when everyone laughs because I don't want to ruin the mood. But then it begins to add up as the jokes pile up and it becomes harder and harder to smile. I start to feel isolated and I start having these strong urges to run away from the current situation. I'm too sensitive to other people and have a crazy imagination, so I'm told by my friends hahaha. I don't know what to do. I know I have a problem with keeping my emotions in check. Sometimes I feel unreasonably sad for no reason. It's happened a lot less since I came back from binghamton but it came back this past weekend when I was hanging out with bing people.
Therefore, the conclusion must be that Binghamton is terrible for your mental health!
